SequinsOverLaces

2011-12-20T18:41:00.002+08:00

Young At Heart

2011-12-19T11:33:00.002+08:00

Montmatre

2011-12-18T13:16:00.006+08:00

Sacre Coeur Basilica

2011-12-11T12:55:00.001+08:00

IM HOME!

UPDATE SOON!

2011-11-29T09:14:00.000+08:00

When Dreams Comes Alive

By the time you read this post, I will already be on my way to the other side of the world. Well, not really. Just 13 hours away, to be precise.

I am definitely going to miss everyone back in Singapore. But ooh yeah, I am sooooo relishing my dreams!

On a happier note, I have made my Twitter to public while I am away so be sure to check it out for updates. I can't promise anything but I will try to keep in touch with everyone.

Lots & lots & lots of love,

Fifi

2011-11-23T09:27:00.011+08:00

Lagun Sari

Congratulations to my dearest and awesome cuzzy! Selamat Pengantin Baru! (:

2011-11-22T09:56:00.013+08:00

Sweet Sixteen

I know, I know, you have seen me in that skirt probably the zillion times now. I sincerely apologize. But I am oh so in love with it that I can't stop myself from wearing it. Actually, that is a total lie. You will soon know why I was forced to have such a limited amount of wardrobe. You don't know how I really feel to have such a plain boring wardrobe. It makes me so uninspired. But hopefully, I really hope this sacrifice will be totally worth it.

Anyhoos, yesterday, 21/11/11, was my 16th birthday! I have turned 16! Finally! Wootsie woots! If you follow my Twitter, I recently tweeted that this birthday celebration with the family was totally unexpected. Again, you will soon know why. I mean, not like my parents did say that they won't be celebrating my birthday this year. But I felt that after what they had done, all the stuffs just to turn my dreams into reality, it is only right to forget celebrating my birthday with them all together. Nonetheless, I am really thankful to have such wonderful and awesome parents.

So, we had late lunch cum dinner at Breeks. Ooh yeah, I broke the tradition of going to Swensens every single year in conjunction of my birthday. I had Char-grilled Salmon with pasta. My all-time favourite fish. & I end everything sweetly with brownies and ice cream. Yummylicious!

Ending this post with a huge thank you and gigantic hearts to everyone out there who wished me. Thank you so much for the remembrance. All the expected and the unexpected, thank you, thank you, thank you.

J'adore,

Fifi

2011-11-21T11:12:00.000+08:00

16 Things You Prolly Don't Know About Me:

1) When I was a kid, I wanted to be a policewoman. Laugh out loud, I know.

2) I'm left-handed.

3) I love pulut kuning (yellow glutinous rice).

4) I bring slippers to school every single day in case it rains. I don't like my school shoes to get dirty and wet unnecessarily.

5) I don't consume coffee.

6) People assume I am someone quiet. But I'm not around my loved ones.

7) I don't like traveling to Malaysia. Not because of the people. But I just don't like the environment.

8) If I were given the chance to learn a dance, it would be ballet. I have always admired the elegance in the steps.

9) I find techno really annoying.

10) I still play dress up games at Roiworld.com. Huhu.

11) My favourite movie is WildChild.

12) I used to think Bruno Mars was a rapper when he first came to fame. Trust me on knowing nuts.

13) I stopped eating nuggets ever since the article about how it is made and what it is made of came out in the internet.

14) I totally hate crowded places.

15) I don't own any Facebook account because I think it is just really pointless and boring.

16) I really think my best side is on my right. I look fat on my left side. That is why you will mostly see me taking pictures towards my left. I know it looks annoying but oh wells.

2011-11-18T12:18:00.017+08:00

Titanic Artifact Exhibition

Hello, peepos!

I'm back with a proper post for today. To start with, I sincerely apologize for the ever so not original and boring template. I did tried to squeeze some fun ideas out of my brain but it has been so long since I think about Blogger that I cannot remember how to change the html code anymore. Till then, this is all I could present to you guys. However, I promise, I promise, I promise, as soon as I have Google-d and YouTube-d everything, from A to Z, I will try to change my blog template into a... I don't know, pretty one?

Anyhoos, I know I have sidetracked a bit. I am not supposed to blabber about all that. Sorry. Hehe!

This post is supposed to be all about my trip to Art Science Museum for the Titanic Artifact exhibition. It was superb. It was original. It was fantastic. It was fun. It was beyond imaginable. I urge you to book a ticket and visit the exhibition like now!

If you realized, unfortunately, there wasn't any pictures taken inside the exhibition. Simply because we were not allowed to take any pictures. Furthermore, the lighting was too dimmed that I could not even be bothered to try to take any picture.

I don't know if you know but I love anything artistic. I enjoy going for exhibitions. I enjoy walking around, just taking my own sweet time to have a 'feel' of the exhibits. & this, this exhibit brought me to tears. It was really something emotional. To witness the original and the exact artifacts of the Titanic is something really heart moving. I am really thankful to God, to whoever that brought this to Singapore and to my parents especially for giving me the chance to view this.

Till here.

Fifi

2011-11-18T11:54:00.009+08:00

2011 Outfits

2011-11-17T16:17:00.057+08:00

2011 Through Pictures

CNY:

Macbeth:

Fish&Co:

RHD:

National Day Celebration:

Girls Night Out:

Hari Raya:

Graduation Day:

2011-11-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

Bonjour, guys!

Well, err, I'm back! Haha! That sounds so weird. I know I'm guilty of going missing in action for months and months and months now. In case you don't know, this year, I had my O Levels. So yeah, that basically explain it all. But they're finally over! So I can blog all I want from now on. Huhu!

Anyway, I'm still in the midst of editing tons and tons and tons of pictures that I'm owing everyone so that will require some time. However, I'm really praying that I can finish them all by this week. I mean, I don't want to be stuck in front of my computer and edit and edit and edit pictures, you know.

I guess that's all for now. I'll update more when I'm free. I've been pretty busy ever since my exams ended.

XOXO,

Fifi

(Sorry for the endless 'and'. Too used to typing them thanks to Twitter. Hehe!)

2011-01-03T15:43:00.007+08:00

So last night I had the usual before-sch-reopens treat from dearest daddy. For a change, we went to Breeks instead. Well, I've never fancied Breeks, to be honest. There isn't much choice of food & the lighting has always been bad. But sis wanted to have dinner there so there we went.

I had a hard time choosing my food 'cause I was looking for anything fish. In the end, I chose Char-grilled Salmon pasta, the first pic of food above. I've always love salmon besides dory. The taste was perfecto & the serving was acceptable. I take it they didn't serve a lot of pasta for mine like mum's prolly 'cause the salmon itself is heavy enough? I'll definitely order Char-grilled Salmon pasta again the next time I go Breeks. (:

So, this is it. The last day before school officially reopens. Not excited. Not at all. I just can't wait to get done & over with my O levels then I can get out of my school. Very eager!

Ciao!

2011-01-01T10:49:00.000+08:00

1/1/11 was spent with my dearest Afrosa. Went all the way to AMK just to meet her. I still can't believe I survived going to & fro by bus all on my own!

So well, it was my first time going to the other side of the Singapore on my own without informing my parents, actually. I had say I took a risk there. The furthest I've been to alone was only Tampines area which is really pathetic. But if you know me, I've never felt comfortable walking alone especially at places where I'm not really familiar with. Or to be honest, most of the time that's not the case. I just don't like walking alone, people staring at me & then I'll just get really insecure. I get affected by stares very easily.

Anyway, we went to AMK Hub which reminds me of Ehub for some reason, AMK Central which is really like Bedok Interchange area & Bishan Junction 8 which reminds of me of CompassPoint. To be frank, I had say I am grateful I was born in Tampines. I get the best of life in terms of the best shopping & stuffs. The stalls there were quite boring, to be honest. & their people, you'll surely go like 'hey, they are not from East, I'm certain'.

The highlight of the day was definitely finding out Diva had sales with everything going $7 & under which was really superb. I shop like mad, taking almost everything. Well, not really, of course. & Afrosa gave me a very gorgeous red watch as my belated birthday gift. (:

2010-12-31T11:22:00.002+08:00

2010 has been such a roller-coaster ride for me. I survived being a vice-chairman though I'm never going back to the duties. I got backstabbed by a dearest friend. I went to my first play. I went China for a school trip. I had the loveliest 15th birthday though they were all belated.

Even though things hasn't been good for me but I'm sure looking at the bright side. No use grudging, no use hating, we are all teens now, we can think right. But just one advice, never ever entertain frenemies. They are just not worth your precious time. (:

Anyway, it's been fun being a 308-ian. Though our class always got into trouble but we did stay put together. Yes, sometimes everyone can just irritate me but at the end of the day, they are really such sweet people. They have their own capabilities & weaknesses & that's what special about every single one of us.

I know just what 408 going to face next year. Dead class, no more stupid jokes, it's all about seriousness. & most importantly, I'm going to be left alone. My girlfriends will be gone & the happiness will be gone too. Just how am I going to survive, you may ask. Well, I don't know either. But if everyone can do it, if everyone can remain strong, why can't I? I know maybe I'll be most affected by this fact because I've been very close to them since they were my classmates. But oh well, I guess no matter what, I just have to survive without them. Let's look at the brighter, we can still hang out together. (:

So well, that should sum up everything.

J'adore

2010-12-31T10:15:00.000+08:00

2011 Resolutions:

1) Study hard for O levels

2) Strive towards success

3) Get good results & prove parents wrong.

4) Be more organized.

5) Self-discipline in managing money.

6) Stop criticizing WakaWaka. Haha.

7) Stop being cranky.

8) Attend more fashion events.

9) Search for part-time job after O's. Possibly at a fashion outlet.

10) TRAVEL TO ANYWHERE IN EUROPE. POSSIBLY PARIS. (:

11) Stop being so negative about the weight.

12) Do not buy magazines during sch days. That will save you lots, Fifi.

13) Try not to feel insecure.

What about yours?

2010-12-31T10:12:00.003+08:00

Are you prepared for 2011?

Are you prepared to face the pressure of schooling again?

Are you prepared to let go of the past & face the future?

Well, I don't. Things has been tough just the way it is. Sometimes I can totally be cheerful & get random, sometimes I just have nervous breakdowns. I am afraid of growing up. I am afraid of facing the world. I just want to stay inside my own shell.

Have you ever ask yourself what you want to be in the future & you got really assured you will achieve those dreams but then out of the blue, you just got confused, you don't know anymore if that's what you really want? I am having that problem. The problem no one wants to experience.

Most of you already know ever since I stepped into secondary school, all I ever wanted is to be in the fashion industry. First, as a fashion designer. Then, as a fashion merchandiser. Next, as a fashion stylist. But now, I just don't know what I want anymore. The fashion market in Singapore is small you can hardly survive.

I don't want to graduate next year without knowing what I want to do & what I want to be. I wish I am that kind of person who always knew what she wanted & achieve them. Now tell me, dear readers, are you facing this problem too?

2010-12-21T13:34:00.002+08:00

10 Random Facts About Me:

1) I love brownies & I like to compare which store has the best taste ever. I'll go with Famous Amos fudge brownie. They are very similar to how I always bake brownies. Chewy, have the right sweetness & what's there not to love about chocolates?

2) I'm a online shopping geek. I would buy everything off the net, if I could. My favourite local online store would be WonderStellar & for international, I'll choose ASOS.

3) I've never been into an arcade before. The last place to visit if I'm bored. I just don't think it's worth my time.

4) I can spend hours in a bookstore sometimes it can drive my friends crazy.

5) I can't swim. I didn't attend Sec 1's swimming lessons. I skipped them all the time.

6) When I was 12 years of age, I was caught red-handed. It was my first so called love letter which some idiotic person sent it to my FT & I was given a warning. I still have the letter with me. To think of it now, it's funny & ridiculous all at the same time.

7) I am totally deeply in love with Paris & Eiffel Tower that I dream about them the whole time. No joke. It would be fun to be in Paris, sitting at some so-Paris-classic cafe, eating macarons, facing the Eiffel Tower.

8) I don't enjoy family gatherings. In fact, I hate them. I'm bad at socializing. Full stop.

9) I've a strict diet when it comes to food. I don't consume meat because I just don't like them & chicken fillets because I think they are really disgusting. I'm also anti-vegetables.

10) I've had body issues since God-knows-when. In fact, there was a time when I had a huge row with my parents because I decided to diet. Unhealthy diet, that is. & I was almost send to counselling.

2010-12-17T13:39:00.002+08:00

Belated Birthday Celebration With GFS

Cutting the cake time.

Haha. This was funny. It was time for the opening of birthday presents so I excitedly grabbed the paper bag, eager to open the presents, only to find there was an ant inside. Of course, so typical of me to freak out.

Fatin's.

Amira's & Hazimah's. It was seriously unexpected. It didn't came into my mind that they would be willing to invest on such things just for me.

Nadiah's. Spot the name bracelet? It has a Hello Kitty Charm on it!!!

Fatin was convinced she was growing taller than me so this is what happened next. Haha.

The tent of maksiat. People, if you want to get sins, go inside that tent & get all lovey dovey alright? -.-

3 days back, Pasir Ris Park finally witnessed the celebration of my belated birthday with the ever so awesome girlfriends. I was late, unfortunately. Haha. Sorry for the delay, girls. As I didn't know what to expect, the whole night was pretty tense and a torture for me. I couldn't sleep and I was thinking about the surprise ever so frequently.

Turned out, the very big and sweet surprise was having Amira with us. Days back, thing's been tough for her for whatever reason but I'm glad that she managed to take the time to attend my belated birthday celebration.

Despite me loathing Pasir Ris Park for some reason, I still managed to have a good time with my loving girls. They really made my day. From the birthday board to the birthday cake to the cute graffiti at the cake box to the very so-me birthday presents, the greatest hug to my awesome girlfriends! Aww!

Thank you Amira & Hazimah for the Strawberry Body Set.

Thank you Fatin for the Love Etc. Body set.

& thank you Nadiah for the Hello Kitty things which I looooove!

<333

Picture of the day:

2010-12-12T20:19:00.004+08:00

Zara's Evening Lookbook

My faves <3

ZARA

2010-12-09T15:58:00.003+08:00

Finally met up with my sweet little bunny yesterday. Celebrated both of our birthdays & went for a shopping spree too.

The day started off with us going to Singtel to settle the text messages issue. In the end, they couldn't help track back my unreceived texts. Got really pissed off, obviously, & was really so upset about it the whole day.

Nonetheless, I still love yesterday for there were too many sales everywhere & everything was of cheap steals. & that I officially am totally head over heels with Max & More. At such cheap prices, they carry very tres chic pieces.

All in all, I really did enjoyed myself with my 9-yrs-&-still-counting bf. (:

2010-12-05T14:32:00.005+08:00

I finally had my belated birthday celebration with family the day before. We had our dinner at the usual Swensen's located at Terminal 2. I was blissfully happy. I had the most wonderful dinner. & most importantly, I felt beautiful after such long time.

To sum everything up, I really did enjoyed myself. We went to this flea located at the usual hall at Terminal 3 where I bought tons of stuffs. I felt totally great.

This morning, I ordered a new spectacle for myself as one of the birthday treats. After waiting for coming to 5 years now, I finally get to change my spectacle. I don't quite know my feelings towards it, to be frank. I just don't quite 'feel' it, you know. But like I tweeted, spectacles has the least of my worries.

I still have my Diva treat. The best part, I'll be having my China money pretty soon. I never really use the money in Kunming so dad & I made a deal that it would be better to shop at Singapore instead. It's going to be really awesome because that means, I can shop till I drop. Hehe.

That's all for now.
Ciao!

2010-12-01T16:12:00.001+08:00

Credits to Shahren, Saqinah, Amanda, Regina,
Nabihan, Haikal & Ms Chua for some of the pics. (:

J'adore,

Fifi

2010-12-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 8 (25 11 2010)

The last day of the trip. I wasn't feeling anything actually. I just wanted to go home. I miss everyone back in Singapore so much so that I really thought I can't stay in China any longer or I'll die.

But if you must know, I miss having fun in China now. I miss the weather. I miss the real friendly people there. I miss the bonding session that we've managed to achieve as a group. Every memories made are really so priceless. Now that I think of everything, it just makes me wanna cry out loud.

The day was really short and chaotic like the 1st day. Before heading to the airport, we stopped over at West Mountain, if I get the name right, followed by Flower Market, is it? I'm so bad in remembering things. Haha.

So when we reached the West Mountain, it was raining cats & dogs and the sick people including couldn't tag along at first. But then we decided taking the whatever thingy so everyone could tag along. It was so cold I was shivering the whole time. To make everything worse, the vehicle was open kind of thing & the best part, the driver was like speeding. Thank God the ride was a short one and we were back in the bus minutes later.

Flower Market was boring. So I thought I could bring home some souvenirs but nothing attracted my attention. So I left the place empty-handed.

Had lunch then we finally proceed to the airport. Transit at Bangkok like the 1st time & home sweet home.

2010-12-01T15:10:00.002+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 7 (24 11 2010)

2nd last day was spent at the Dinosaur Valley. Basically all the fossils of dinosaurs that were found in Yunnan province. This place was said to be the biggest .... idk, biggest place for dinosaur fossils? Alright, I'm confused because there's also one in Texas. Whatever. Haha.

So anyway, we went into 2 museums altogether. All those dinosaur fossils were placed in the museums. Very interesting. Alright, to be frank, they were boring. All I could think of at that point of time was the amusement park. Haha.

Nonetheless, the place was beautiful still. It's just, you know, if I'm not interested in something, I can never get interested in those stuffs. So well, skip all the boring parts.

As some of you may know, this is the day I fall sick. Honestly, I wasn't having the best time of my life. I was enduring the pain from the headache. But I wanted to ride rides so badly I decided to just ignore those pain.

Unfortunately, it got really bad so I only had the opportunity to ride 3 rides which is considered enough for some of us. Afterwards, I just hang around with the rest of the sick people at some sheltered area. It really wasn't fun to see the rest of them enjoying themselves but I rather bore myself with sitting down and rest than to get more sick.

The time finally arrived when Ms Chua was like "Fifi, are u ok? Why are u so quiet?" & people just started to gather around me. Which made me feel more sick, seriously. Despite that, I was well taken care of by the Singapore tour guide, Ms Clarisse and teacher-in-charge of my group, Ms Reenu. I'm just really thankful to them.

(Last ride before I got really sick. The ride was a total maniac. I'm convinced they wanna kill people. Haha.)

It felt like such bad luck when the teachers announced the group will be going shopping. & I went "Of all days in China, why now when I'm sick?" I wasn't allowed to go out with the group, by the way. I had to rest. Even then, I never did rest. I packed my luggage. Haha. I know I'm stubborn like that.

At 6 in the evening, we went for dinner. Decided not to eat but when I saw my favourite egg dish, hehe, well I just had to take some. I know I'm contradicting like that. But they taste so bitter I couldn't finish them up. & like that wasn't enough drama, I was forced to drink up this really 'urgh' ginger soup. The taste was really OHMYGOD kind of thing, you know.

I couldn't attend the last day of reflection. Mrs Tan was like "Fifi, why are you even here? You are shivering! Come with me, you're going back to your room. Have a panadol in front of me." She was so serious like that I got so freaked out.

& that was the end of the day. (:

2010-12-01T13:46:00.002+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 6 (23 11 2010)

The whole day was spent at Anning Middle School. The last day everyone saw one another. I miss them a lot, by the way.

When we first reached the school, we went straight to the sports hall where we warm up with Taiji. It was kind of shocking for our body since it was still quite early. It wasn't written in the schedule that we would be doing Taiji too so everyone was like "huh, is this for real?" kind of thing. Haha.

We then had a dance which I enjoyed very much. It was fun. Really enjoying & I was like smiling the whole time. The dance was something really easy. & so I thought the 2nd dance would be of the same standard too.

Little did I know. The 2nd dance reminded me a lot of Malay dance. It was challenging. But this one guy really cool like that managed to pull it off & was enjoying the whole time. The guy is none other than Shahren. Haha.

After which, we had the performances. Vice versa. Anning, East View, Anning, East View and the sequence just went on.

The day was wrapped up with us meeting our buddies, exchanging emails, gifts, hugs & finally goodbye. The best part of the day was definitely when we dance together & finally sort of cramped into this one small not-so circle. Really memorable. (:

(I know the thingy on my forehead is not even at the center but shhh.)

2010-12-01T11:17:00.002+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 5 (22 11 2010)

We had CIP at Anning Wenquan School. It was at the rural side so as expected, it was freezing cold. Being the silly me, I was stubborn, as always. I didn't do much layering as I should. & there I was, suffering the whole time.

The school was something really unexpected. I expected something more like a rural school, you know. Haha. But it was kind of big and doesn't really show it is at the rural village. Nevertheless, the kids there are just so uber cute! They were very welcoming with all their different antics.

One thing I have learned from this trip is definitely the way they look at you and are appreciative of whatever they get. They are keen for knowledge. They are eager to let outsiders help them. I am glad to have this opportunity to make a difference to their school.

After they had their lessons and games, it was time for some performances from us. Like I said, it was freezing cold so we, the Indian dancers, didn't had the chance to wear the Punjabi. The sight was uninteresting but really couldn't help it.

The ending was kind of saddening because everything happened too fast. It's like, the time spent with them is totally not enough, you know.

(OMG, this guy looks like Korean, right? Sooooo cute....Haha)

So anyway, we then proceeded to Anning Middle School where we had a school tour. Followed by Taiji.

Can you believe they have like labs for every topic? Especially for Physics. & their labs are super cool, by the way. Then there's a room filled with preserved stuffs. Basically all those Biology experiments that the students have done. Really heartbreaking to see all those beautiful once-alive animals to be placed inside glasses.

If you must ask, Taiji is something I can never enjoy. So I thought it would be easy especially with the slow motion movements but I really can't handle the steps. I'm honestly so bad at following the instructor.

After everything ended, we headed back to the hotel. But obviously, the day won't be complete without the picture below. Hehe.

2010-11-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 4 (21 11 2010)

So yay, it was my birthday! I officially turned 15 in China. Haha. The day was really memorable. To begin with, everyone was wishing me happy birthday during breakfast. Including Mr Teo! Then during the time when we had to assemble at the lobby, me and this another November birthday guy called Favian was surprised with a birthday cake. Along with birthday song! I was super touched with everyone's effort. & inside the bus on the way to our first destination, Stone Forest, everyone dedicated Waka Waka for me. Haha, Waka Waka is actually an inside joke for those who are clueless.

Stone Forest is another boring tourist attraction. Sorry, I have no interest for anything that has got to do with stones. It was kind of like "Oh crap, why is this so boring? I wish I'm in the hotel, sleeping." That kind of feeling, you know. But if you must know, Stone Forest is actually the First World Wonder. & I actually got nagged by my mum because I took insufficient pictures of the place. She enjoys these kind of things a lot while I don't.

By the time we completed like half of the journey, I grew bored of taking pictures. & eventually, I suffered from a headache due to the direct sunlight. But thank God, I felt better after lunch.

Next, we went to Jiuxiang or however the spelling is. It was all about a cave where u sort of have to trek a lot. Very challenging but I managed to keep myself positive. Many people were having a hard time, you will know why later when you see the pictures. I too got slightly freaked out but hey, it can't be everyone freaking out right. So I decided to be the strong one and encouraged my fellow schoolmates. It was tough. People were like crying, saying "I rather die", "I wanna go home" and such. But obviously, that's impossible. There was only one way out, unfortunately. Unless you want to trek back which is just ridiculous.

Afterwards, something happened. Haha. Obviously something happened. Sorry, again I can't remember what happened next.

I just wanna thank every single one of you who have made my birthday a special one. From wishing me personally, buying me birthday cake, singing a birthday song, giving a priceless memory at Jiuxiang and to those who texted me from Singapore which I still can't receive idkw but I'll find out, I promise. Just thank you very much for every single thing. Love you guys! :D

2010-11-30T16:43:00.003+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 3 (20 11 2010)

Day 3 was occupied with home visitation and to somethingsomething Cultural Village. Haha. We were supposed to go shopping instead of the Cultural Village but you can never trust the words of teachers. They never meant what they said, seriously.

The home visitation was very meaningful. I love it. Was with Shahren and Mustaqim and they were some awesome bunch of people to be with. We started with watching Spongebob Squarepants (in Chinese) which reminded me of Karate Kid. We then did some dumplings which was very fun and .... The guys were like "Alright, I help you, you help me" because they didn't know how to do them. Haha. But hey, I was some independent woman who did everything by myself and I am so proud of that. Heee.

After which, we walked around the area a bit. The place was stunningly beautiful. I wish Singapore was as scenic as Kunming.

(Spot the mini Eiffel Tower? That's Anning Middle School.)

Then we went to this park located at a very busy area. The feeling was horrible. I got freaked out by all the stares from the people. Obviously, people can spot us as an outsider. & all sorts of negative stuffs started to run into my mind.

Thank God, we reached back Anning Middle School safely. Haha. Took some pictures for memories. Nevermind about the language barrier. They are really such sweet people. (:

Headed to the Cultural Village next. It was honestly boring. Tons of creepy looking statues everywhere. Turn left, turn right, look straight, look back, they are just on every corner. Even Qinah had nightmare that night.

Because I'm such a bad blogger who doesn't know what to write about this Cultural Village, enjoy my favourite pictures.

2010-11-30T15:17:00.003+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 2 (19 11 2010)

(Ate cereals for the next 5 days. The last day I ate some yummylicious cakes.)

Second day was more relaxed. We visited Anning Middle School. The school was super gigantic. Truth be told, I went "Qinah, look at those houses. So beautiful! I wanna live there!" when it actually turned out to be our twinning school. The students and staffs were really friendly and you don't get treated like that in Singapore. Well, in East View Secondary School, to be more precise.

(Can you spot the mini Eiffel Tower? Hehe.)

After getting down from the bus, we got to their auditorium where they had some performances for us. Their quality of performances, ethnic costumes and confidence are way way way better than us, Singaporeans. & like the entire trip teachers kept repeating asking how we can be a confident individual like them too. I mean, really, if you see the way they gave speech, sang and host, you will go like "wow, they are really something".

After what felt like such a short period of time, we went to one of their class where we learned Chinese calligraphy. To be frank, I like the experience that I have gained. I may not be an expert in drawing but I am thankful that I was given the chance to try something I never thought I could handle.

We then headed back to the auditorium where they held a contest of speech between East View Secondary School and Anning Middle School. I still don't get it why they called it a contest since it was not even a contest. Nonetheless, it was still entertaining to watch how different between our people and their people are. Like I mentioned earlier, they are all about being confident individuals and that is something we East Viewans should work on.

(This guy is just so cute like that. Haha.)

(This was actually an art piece by one of the East View student from the 2008 badge. Real talented.)

(A picture of the whole school. Not really clear but you can somehow figure out how big the school is.)

The rest of the day was something I could not remember of. I think we just had dinner then headed back to the hotel to do our reflection.

2010-11-30T10:49:00.005+08:00

KUNMING, YUNNAN, CHINA

DAY 1 (18 11 2010)

Woke up at 3.30 in the morning. Tired? Not a bit. Excited? Not so. All I wanted was to cancel the trip, idkw. I was the second to arrive at the airport. It was already so chaotic despite in the morning. Walked around a bit then finally it was time to assemble with the rest.

This is my first school trip, actually. I didn't know what to expect. So I just went with the flow. My flight was really terrible, to be honest. We took Thai Airways & I can assure to those who haven't had the experience of taking real size airplanes, they are way better. In fact, I still think SIA is the best. They have the best service, they smile to you, they put on their best effort in everything. Having a bad day? You won't even realize they are pissed.

Putting aside all these people, because the airplane is way smaller than usual, it kind of gave me a very bad headache. I got super restless the entire flight, Singapore-Bangkok-Kunming. & by the way, the food was terrible, as always.

Blablabla...and we finally reached Kunming International Airport. We were presented with roses by the representatives from Anning Middle School. We really felt like VIPs, I should say.

After which we got back to the hotel, New Era Hotel. It really felt like a 4-star hotel. I miss it so much, by the way. Such good memories. ):

We then walked around the area and proceeded for dinner. The food was obviously... I even got scolded because I didn't ate a lot. Hehe. Honestly, when it comes to food for survival, idc. Even if it means I'm going to die. If I don't like, I just don't like.

2010-11-16T16:11:00.013+08:00

PACKING

I'm still thinking if I should bring along my fat yet comfy pink jacket just in case of emergency. But I'm not sure. My luggage is already full!

As you can see, no pictures of bottoms taken because I'm still unsure of what jeans to bring. I'm certainly not a jeans girl!

Bangles and Punjabi borrowed from the Indian dance. I like them very much. As you can see, the Punjabi is so big. In case you need an idea, it will be a dress if i wear it.

My parents nearly fainted when they saw these 'unneccessary' entertainment. So important to me, they will never understand.

These are the gifts that have been wrapped. They remind me of songket.

The oxfords that I tweeted about.

My favorite essentials. Especially the Colgate. Hehe.

Earrings that nearly got my mum a heart attack when she saw I'm bringing them. Heh.

The luggage is not full yet. I still have my sneakers and slippers to pack.

2010-11-15T08:31:00.003+08:00

Buon giorno!

I apologize I have been posting pictures from the internet. I do have tons of pictures to share. However, my computer crashed in the past week so I have not upload them to the computer yet.

Anyway, I am back! & I will be gone for quite a while again. For some of you who are clueless, I am going to Kunming, Yunnan, China. Kunming is in Yunnan, Yunnan is in China. Simple as that. Haha.

I am beyond excited! It is like every single day I jump up and down waiting in excitement for the day to finally arrive. I am going on 18 November and will be back by 25 November. Yeah, right before the day i flight is Hari Raya Haji and on the 4th day of the trip is my birthday, sadly. If you follow my twitter, you will know that I am practically and emotionally sad that I will miss my one and only 15th birthday. Which will be so weird, of course, because I have never ever miss my birthday.

We already had a briefing which was not helpful at all. Alright, so maybe I am too used to travelling but honestly, I did not understand a single thing what the travel guide talked about. She has that...I think she is not Singaporean.

So, it is going to be freezing there. 8 to 16 degrees. The last time I checked the newspaper, it can go down to 6 degrees. I am not going to bring my winter jacket with me because I will just look so bloated like a balloon if I had wear it with the school's windbreaker. Instead, I have replaced it with 4 other sweaters and jackets. Actually, I am not even sure if they are all sufficient but I really do not want to look bloated. & in case if I am so desperate, I will just do some layering.

By the way, I am beyond stressed up now because everyone is silent for my group's game lesson. & that I am kind of freak out for my dancing. Oh, wait. I have not wrote about this before. Yes, I am dancing Indian dance. Actually, no, it is Bollywood dance. Pretty simple but I just could not concentrate in front of everyone and kept forgetting the steps which is really nerve-wrecking.

Luggage packing is totally insane! It drives me mad! I officially cannot travel on my own, full stop. My luggage is sooo heavy I am not sure if i can handle them. How I wish I have the power the make the luggage go weightless. That will be so easy peasy for me.

Oh, and yeah, I have bought the gifts for the people and I like it very much. It is just something like pieces of puzzle that you can eventually form into a model, Merlion that is. & then you can bring out your creativity and maybe paint them or something. Very cool, I should say. But they are medium size and sort of heavy so that is another burden of me.

Alright, I think this post is way too long so I guess I will end not.

Toodles!

2010-10-31T13:46:00.004+08:00

Bonjour!

A month and five days. That's how long I have been missing in action. Exams. Results. Heartbreaking news. That's what has been happening in my life. At least, to sum them all up. Thursday wasn't my last day of school, sadly. I am having bridging plus meetings for the 18-more-days trip. The feeling is completely surreal. I'm completely not prepared. I'm completely freaking out.

Things honestly have not been going the way I want them to be. Results were disappointing. I honestly got advanced. No, not because for the sake of English. I can handle that subject. Actually, I am not sure what went wrong but I supposed, my results proved just how much effort I have put in. This, I am not embarrassed to admit. I was even on the verge of being retained, I promise. But because of my lovely teachers, they have been there for me. I owe them a lot. For believing I deserve a second chance. For believing I can do way better. Just, for believing in me, especially.

Next year is my O levels. Things are going to be much more exhausting, complicated and challenging. I need to find a way so I can handle my stress level. Mr K commented I did an excellent job for every given task. I just need to work on remembering and having more practice for my Mathematics. That, I am so working on.

Anyway, to summarize the soon-ending 2010, my life has been pretty unsettled, confusing and just about everything. Like for example, my last day of school did not end with a good note. 11 of my classmates were retained, 2 of whom are very close to my heart. I cannot imagine life without them. It is true. We are going to end up like 305 this year, no offence.

Yes, things are absolutely insane, crazy and a complete maniac now. But I promise, we will stick through thick and thin. We will make this work, pushing ourselves till the very end. (:

J'adore,

Fifi

2010-09-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

September is coming to an end now. Yet my feelings and emotions still havent change/stabilize. For some reason, life has been a challenge for me. I lost a friend. I've lost the respect. People laugh at me for being so full of myself. But thank you, wonderful friends, for always being there for me, for understanding my situation, the real situation.

I admit, being a minority can be difficult. People look down on you because as always, they follow the crowd, the majority. I feel sorry for people like this. For making rumours that aren't even true. These are the losers in life, the backstabbers, the liars, the hypocrites.

I know there are obstacles in life where you feel like giving up because you think you don't make that impact anymore. And that now, this is what I truly feel. But I know, if I'm not going to stay strong, it shows I'm such a failure. And I don't want that to happen. I don't want to show this pathetic monsters that I'm such a softy and can't carry on with life.

To her, I just want you to know that whatever happen between us, I just thought you were my true friend. But of course, what was I thinking? People have warned me about how ridiculous you can be but I was so blind by your kindness. Silly me! And to think that you said that about me, hah, you are just giving yourself a very bad impression to others.

& to you, boy, please ok. I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore. Forget about me saying we can be friends. There is no way am I going to let someone who broke my heart, who patch it back, who broke my heart again and then just left without apologizing. For someone who has no manners at all, who are confused between two girls, who are so desperate, who are so obsessed, you can just fly away, I guess. You know I've nothing to do with this but why didn't you explain to them it was you all these while who were playing games? How could you let them criticize me for something I wasn't involve in? How could you hide and let me handle this all alone?

2010-09-26T13:04:00.009+08:00

HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

To view 308 Jalan Raya pics, click here.

2010-09-26T12:44:00.001+08:00

What I've been feeling lately.

2010-09-01T12:15:00.006+08:00

Guess who is back? Teehee!

I apologize for I have been missing for what felt like years. I have been busy with life, internet connection has not been good all along and maybe, there were times when I feel like updating this dusty blog but am lazy to.

In my long absence from blogger, I have had my class performance which is awesome to the max. Break fast with both F & N. Got transferred to another class for my religious class 'cause I pass my exams which honestly is a bad thing 'cause smart people are so boring. Bought my Raya clothes. Received my results which by the way has a huge improvements in them except for boring DNT. Everyone was making a big fuss about the class pictures which to be honest, the candid look weird while I look perfect for the formal. & the latest one is Teachers' Day celebration.

Things have been great but tough at the same time. I am not having the best time of my life, that is for sure. For the record, I will not be celebrating Raya that much this year. Mum's health has been kind of bad, to be frank. She has not start cooking yet. I am getting sick of eating outside food, honestly. To add on, she is not making kuih Raya this year. It is a bit upsetting because this means we are not going to have the ever so famous honey cornflakes.

To worsen the already bad situation, I recently got to know from a health magazine that we should never be too sure mum's condition won't get worse and that in some way or another, there is a possibility either me or sis could get it too. No kidding.

Despite all this hiccups, I know it is absolutely not right to sigh and complain. I am going to stay strong, I promise.

To enlighten this post, well, let's face it, I cannot wait to go Kunming! Teehee! Oh, that totally reminds me I have not photocopy my passport yet.

Anyway, hello September, goodbye August!

Till the next time,

Toodles!

2010-08-10T13:13:00.000+08:00

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LAUGH OUT LOUD!

2010-08-07T13:22:00.003+08:00

My National Day celebration wasn't anything usual like celebrating with my bunch of people. Instead, I celebrated with the Anning students.

They are very friendly people. Communicating with them is a challenge but that is not an excuse. Instead, we use the idea of writing and that was when me and a buddy started to ask all sorts of questions to each other. If I were to be honest, it wasn't that thrilling. But without a translator, that would do good. Besides, when they write, I can actually correct them. Not to show them that I am this one clever person but to correct their mistakes.

Despite that, I had to put in a little effort. They don't understand some really basic English. And because I was wearing this red tee that has a USA flag on the right, they really thought I was Caucasian. Honestly.

Even then, we still had lots of fun. We had lunch together and we played games. Actually, just a game. Haha.

Oh, and this, why did they put Chili Sauce on the fillet fish?

And, M asked me if I have been to Kunming before. I hadn't had the chance to answer and he was already attacking me with more questions. Let's get this clear. The February meet up wasn't because I had went there. I was the first few to sign up for the trip. And therefore, I had the chance to be the Singapore's ambassador for the China people.

Anyway, I will be meeting them again next Wednesday. Yes, the first day of the fasting month. It will be a very long day. It will end at 4 in the afternoon, with lots of activities and lesson observations. I am thankful that I will not be involve with the lesson observations. Which totally means, I don't have to miss lessons.

Next Wednesday too will be the exchanging of gifts. Hui Qin and I had bought extra gifts for the remaining 2 people in our group. Hope they will like it.

I will end here. Tata!

2010-08-07T12:32:00.005+08:00

I take this picture very the lawa right? haha.

Old times...

I purposely took this picture to show my readers how Singaporeans are doing. -.-

Unfortunately, this Fatin does not know how to take a good picture of those adorable little cuties.

I told you Mr Goh's ipad is real!

Greetings, everyone!

As of now, I'm going to update about last Thursday, the trip to Singapore Science Centre with my fellow classmates and Mr Goh, my awesome Physics teacher. The purpose of the trip was to watch some documentary at the OmniTheatre. Something to do with mother nature.

The trip was a really last minute plan, with only half of my classmates going. I love how these kind of outings makes my class bond with one another. And like I mention at my twitter, I only love this 308. Not the entire one. Only because the morons were not there with us, which equals to bliss.

Mr Goh was great! He was like 'walk around and meet at the entrance at blablabla'. Any other teacher would ignore that. They would be like 'alright, everyone, follow me', you know that kind of thing. And because of that, we had so much fun, enjoying ourselves, making such a fool of ourselves in the public and the list just goes on.

I love how this classmates of mine are just so open minded. They are just...perfect. Perfect to the extend that I wish the rest don't exist in our class. That would be oh so great. No problem or whatsoever.

I do have some awesome videos to share. However, there is a slight problem here. The sound come first then the actions. I do not know what is wrong but I will try to find out. The videos will be up anytime soon.

I am currently uploading the Racial Harmony Day pictures to my multiply so this trip's pictures will be next.

Anyway, I am sure everyone wants me to share about how my National Day celebration went. That will be in the next entry.

Toodles!

2010-08-01T15:12:00.004+08:00

the birthday girl!

why my hair like cik pon but no one cared to tell me?

Hello!

im so bored, twitter is having some maintenance. so, yeah, i got nothing better to do than updating this blog again. my followers at twitter would have known that last thurs was my sis's birthday. so yesterday, we celebrated her birthday at Pizza Hut located at Changi Airport Terminal 1. its still new, opened 1 wk back.

overall, i had say the service was bad. i take it the waiters and waitresses are mostly from Philippines and they havent had that basic experience. they were all still trainees as shown at their badges. the front service was alright. the woman was so friendly, maybe a bit over that we became uncomfortable. but that wasnt a problem. the problem came when we ordered the food. basically, while this woman was taking our orders, there came this complication of orders and it went haywire for a while. in fact, the woman left us all alone, not sure if she had listened to us. of course it wasnt really their fault. they were just doing their job as best as they could possibly do. however, the thing is, in cases like this, where restaurants are situated at the most important part in Singapore, which is the airport, where all the tourists settle down to eat, it is very embarassing to have this kind of service. in fact, they should have asked the more experienced workers to handle that restaurant. i mean, c'mon, put urself in those tourists shoes. u were famish and u thought u did a good choice by choosing Pizza Hut and it turns out the service was bad. the food came late. and u started to worry if u still had enough time for ur flight. u know, it actually went to that extend whereby this one customer actually left the place just as his food had arrived without even touching them. maybe thats a bit rude but he has every right to react that way. in a nutshell, wat im trying to say here is that singapore has always been so concerned about giving good services. but why cant they handle such cases easily?

anw, aside from that, i still love going to the airport. never fails to make me feel so happy. btw, i love my stripe maxi dress. its actually a hands-on from my aunt. alright, i forget that word but it means my aunt gave it to me.

the next day, we went to all the tampines malls in search for my sis's birthday gift which equals to insertwordhere. she was so choosy, idk wat else to say about her. at last she settled with this super not nice Adidas watch, dont worry, she knows i dont like it, and also this Charles & Keith bag. looks so alike like that Miu Miu bag. i loike! anw, wat made me mad was that, i really thought she was all so happy and satisfied with her purchases but turns out, i was completely wrong. she then complained to me, 'i should have bought that another bag'. how can i not go mad, u tell me? after wat felt like hrs sitting in that shop, she now have that perfect sense to say she didnt like it. god, how annoying can she be?

btw, this is a pic of me at BHG while waiting for mum who was searching for stuffs at the most boring ever category, kitchenware.

2010-07-30T18:24:00.009+08:00

todays post will be different. after 2 posts about Kunming, China trip, i will no longer bore u guys about that anymore. further updates will be up once the trip will be much nearer, like sep or oct.

things been as usual. i dont really wanna talk about the misunderstanding thats happening between 2 parties.

anyhoos, actually, i dont know wat to write about. haha. alright, ive updated my tumblr after so long, my twitter is this but its private due to some reasons and ive answered some ques at formspring. only that it doesnt appear for some reason.

on another note, ive recently had this issue with this guy. same old guy. so...bleargh. i dont know when this will eventually stop. it has been going on since forever. since we were in sec 1. dont tell me we have to carry on this way till sec 4, u know. just...watever ok.

my mind is really so blank now. ill just stop here. sorry for the very short and boring post.

toodles!

2010-07-23T15:21:00.006+08:00

Hello, peepos!

i apologize for the pics havent been uploaded yet. multiply doesnt seems to work today so probably tomorrow or so, u'll get to see the rest of the pics.

meanwhile, ill fill in this post with wats been happening with my life now. things been great. only it just gets tougher. sis is currently having fever so now ive to take care of both mum and her. but no, im not complaining or anything. and yeah, i dont wanna talk about this anymore.

so, there was a meeting for the Kunming trip last wed and we were being grouped up. i was with someone and someone. haha. i only remembered i still couldnt pronounce the girl's name properly. the pronounciation is somewat the same as Hui Jun's but slightly lighter or something. anw, the China peeps are coming down on the 6 and 11 of august. which totally means i cant celebrate national day celebration with friends. i also have to start buying gifts for them but idk wat. any ideas? ure welcome to text or formspring or tweet me even. ur help is greatly appreciated.

we also had a briefing on wat we'll be doing in China and im so excited! the only thing is that....we have to eat wat they give us, u know. i really tried my best to not think about it but up till now, that info is still stuck in my head. idk wat to do. ive never been told wat i should eat and wat i should not. i mean, aside from the ques of halal food. ive always had this 'strict diet' where my world doesnt evolve around beef, veg, seafood, all the sauces and lots of other things. so when i was told 'if u want to eat cup noodles everyday, might as well dont go'. i mean of course i wont want to eat cup noodles everyday. but the thought of eating China food just makes me feel so sick. no, nothing to do with China itself.

aside from that, every other activities is fine by me. one day we'll be going to Anning for exchange programme which amira said we'll be playing some basketball or captain's ball. god, i wanna run away! then on another day we'll be going to this rural sch for CIP. the same idea from the Philippines trip. and some other day we'll be going for home visits which i really cant wait for. for the rest of the days, prolly just touring around.

and guess wat? most prolly, we'll have the chance to update on our trip every single day using some comp or something. its actually a part of the trip thing where we are suppose to record down our journey experience. awesome much? i simply cant wait! only negative side is, we've to sacrifice our sleeping time, or so Mr K said.

uh, wat else? oh, the teachers intend to do us this EVSS kinda jacket. forget the actual word. god, can just use badge or tag or something right. it will be so ugly if they really wanna design for us that outerwear. and also, i actually havent planned on wat to bring with me for the trip. i ditched the plan the last time i tweet because i had to rearrange my mags.

oh, and god, i totally totally forgot about this. why hadnt u remind me on this? haha. i just wanted to inform u guys the date actually had been changed. instead of 20 to 27 nov, it is now 18 to 25 nov. great, huh? still my birthday.

on another note, Ms S or rather Mrs S went bonkers with us, the class leaders. it was regarding the class leader workshop the day before, that no one came except 4 only, and also regarding the badge which we are expected to wear. i really have no hope anymore. i just want to forget about this, want this yr to end quickly, get over sec life and go some art sch. idk, im so tired of everything, alright.

lastly, sorry lah for my awkward body language. u and i, theres nothing no more. lets forget about the past, lets be strangers instead. u cant mend my heart and i cant make u happy. and stop writing on ur facebook about me pls.

2010-07-17T12:38:00.002+08:00

Hello wello peepos!

i apologize for ive not been updating for the past wk. theres something wrong with my internet connection. i spent more time trying to fix them than using the net. so it wasnt really worth my time at all.

anw, if u follow my twitter, u would have known why i went mia from sch for 2 days. yes, i actually suffered from food poisoning. ever since my mum got hospitalized, my food intake has been so full of crap. lets face the fact, idk how to cook and i pay less attention to proper food. but i was back to sch yesterday. even then, i totally underestimate myself though. my body just refused to work properly and i really had to be that strong. even so, the pain was an on-off thing so that actually made matters worse. if only i knew food poisoning would be affecting me this bad.

aside from that, i think my dear little tummy is so full of air because ive been getting gastric pain now and then too. prolly because i eat so much lesser these days. really cant help it because i dont even have the appetite.

on a much happier note, the results are already out and...I GOT SELECTED FOR THE KUNMING TRIP! again, if u follow my twitter, ull know just how crazy i am about it. im definitely so happy and excited!

nevertheless, im still a bit upset for the people i know wont get to go. but dont worry people, im so gonna buy stuffs for u guys, especially american apparel. dont be sad ok? oh, which totally reminds me i havent send out my London souvenirs yet. hehe. i know its so last season. ill send it out next wed before sch then.

and uh the fact that theres more chinese than malay or indian, we are so outnumbered. also, M, H used-to-be crush will be going too which totally means...i actually still think hes such a freak. haha. but who knows, after the trip we might be the best of friends. joke of the year. and2, shes going too. i dont quite know how to take this news because ever since i got to know about something, i feel so uncomfortable being with her. but then again, maybe shes worth getting to know of. and lastly, he will be there too. and im saying this again. its gonna be so so weird.

anw, hopefully they change the date or something because the trip is supposed to be from 20 Nov to 27 Nov. which totally totally means i wont get to celebrate my birthday with my family. that gonna be so weird. ive been celebrating my birthday with my family ever since i was born so im quite upset about it. so yeah, i just hope for the best then.

sorry for the very long post.

till here then.

2010-07-07T17:33:00.001+08:00

wat if one day, both ur parents got back home and inform u one of them had to go for operation?

wat if u ask why and they said he or she suffers from an illness?

wat if all these while, u hadnt thought about all this but it just happened?

im scared. i wish i wasnt that kid who had to pretend shes strong inside out. because at the end of the day, all she does is shed more tears.

with this, i want to clarify some doubts here. this problem has got nothing to do with the term 'divorce' like wat someone had assumed at my formspring. it would be my pleasure if everyone dont just blurt things out without thinking how i will feel about it.

2010-07-05T13:52:00.002+08:00

today was spent roaming alone around tampines inter and the malls. i cant bear looking at mum anymore. im just so sick of crying. my weekend was already a tough one when my family visited both dad and mum's side to inform them about u know wat. my mum is honestly a strong person. she was very calm when she told everyone. if i were her, i would have probably been crying even before uttering any word.

so anw, i went to cheers as usual to stock up mags in preparation for my stay at _____. afterwhich, i went san bookshop and bought the last song and remember me?.

btw, im not even sure if im going for the lit festival. i can already hear someone shouting at me 'but its compulsory!'. however, if u were me, u wouldnt even want to go elsewhere except being there for ur beloved mum.

peace out.

2010-07-05T13:11:00.000+08:00

Dear God,

pls save my friend.

2010-07-02T19:14:00.002+08:00

things happened recently and ill never look at my mum the same way again. all i can do now is to pray hard for her for wat gonna happen this coming thurs. i love her very much, only god knows how unprepared i am right now.

things been definitely hard for me and its gonna be more challenging when my mum is gone. i wish my bfs knew about this except for amira, but i suppose its just not the right moment yet. i promise someday, ill share it with everyone. although people would think that it is confidential, but i know that in some way, it is not.

if u think thats the end of my misery, think twice. a few days ago, the area behind my left ear hurts so much i cried almost the whole time. it has not healed yet though. people thought i suffer from salah bantal. but i know its not. even after my dad recite the ayat kursi, it still doesnt make any difference. i was supposed to visit my family doctor just now but it rained heavily in the afternoon and its also because mum got back home late from her blood test.

putting all that aside, sch has finally started. i really loathe the new timetable. the only good thing is my class dont have to begin our day with numbers or rather maths.

interview for anning, china, trip was held last wed. i was in grp 6. im not sure how it went for me but i personally think that chairman's crush has the potential to go. hate her! haha. other than that, atiqah was seated beside me and she couldnt sit still. so annoying! haha.

thats all. really dont have the mood.

havent yet do religious class project.

havent revise for practical prayer exam. did i translate it correctly? haha.

2010-06-27T15:50:00.002+08:00

usually, first day of sch is a disappointment. i hope not for tomorrow. also, i hope teacher gives away the title of vice chairman to someone else. really dont have the will to continue on just about anything.

im ready for sch in the sense of physically. sch uniform, sch bag, shoes, u get wat i mean. but emotionally, no. i dont want sch to reopen. never. like everyone else, i have infinity butterflies in my stomach. right this moment.

idk wat else to write. im sorry this post is just so depressing. and im also sorry i had to begin a new term like this. just cant help it.

toodles.

2010-06-26T18:46:00.001+08:00

have u ever experience the feeling whereby u got in contact with a guy u dont even like and then felt guilty for 'betraying' the guy u like even when he doesnt know ur feelings towards him?

no, im not referring to myself. i was just thinking of someone.

2010-06-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

i wasnt in the mood for the past few days. i even gave shopping with nad a go the day before. certainly not due to that spamming issue. its just i wasnt in that right state of mind. last evening itself, i didnt slept. i ate this whole gigantic packet of potatoes, watever the name is called. movie marathon-ed the whole way till 1 hr before dad woke me up for Subuh prayers. i still feel miserable now.

2010-06-25T21:07:00.002+08:00

haiyo, going gila with that spammer and all those who back me up.

urgh.

haha.

2010-06-25T15:57:00.003+08:00

ive deleted the spammer's comments. solely because i know i was in the wrong too. in a way that i think i was so rude to her. i know maybe some of u will object this because u think she deserves it, but its just not me.

however, that doesnt mean im defeated. because i know, we know, and god knows its 99.9 percent positive that she did it. even though she said its the opposite. for those who got the opportunity to read wat was going on this morning at my formspring, yes, i do have proofs with me.

but lets just say, i want everything to settle. i dont care if we are not settled yet because i know i already am. furthermore, sch will be reopening soon so i certainly am not gonna be distracted with all these issues.

it doesnt matter if she still wants to attack me. or she thinks im a complete loser. or just watever that runs through her mind.

for all i know, ive blocked her.

for someone who already knows how to hurl vulgarities, swear and spam, i dont see any reason why i should treat her like a small kid even though shes just P4.

Fifi

2010-06-24T15:56:00.003+08:00

im glad to know its not someone i know who spammed my formspring. anw, apparently, shes not even done yet. not sure wat shes so unhappy about. not that i know her. so ah lian wanna talk much! urgh. u see lah, because of her, my blog post has turn into something full of singlish. (does anyone know her? because shes a total maniac, u know)

putting that aside, tnps had a gathering in the morning. didnt attend because i didnt even know about it. anw, no one informed me on wat they were doing there. i only got to know about it when Shafiqah Azmi texted me so early in the morning when i was still sleeping. haha.

and oh, yesterday was the last day i pay back fasting. so happy! but yesterday also that ah lian girl need to appear out of nowhere and test my patience. still got people like this in this world.

oooh, do u know that that *insertwordhere* girl copy and paste the formspring code without even changing my name into her name. see lah, this is wat i call uneducated people. bloody no nothing act so smart.

2010-06-24T13:05:00.002+08:00

tsk3, some people out there really got no life keeps checking my blog and spam my formspring. go and study lah if nothing better to do. im pretty certain ure jealous of me because im just fabulous like that. want to spam never write name, so funny. lunatic.

this is wat i call uneducated people. want to spam but know nothing. why does blogskins.com even exist? because its for sharing, my dear. not for only one blog user.

2010-06-23T17:43:00.001+08:00

# It' like she's classy I'm not, she's the girl from town and I'm the sesat kampung girl,she wear dress I wear jean, she's smart and I'm not. 4:51 AM Jun 21st via web

# For three years, i've been thinking how me and Fifi became friends. Idk how. But we're so different and so unlike those BFF in tv or movies. 4:48 AM Jun 21st via web

amira, c'mon, not this again. u know i love u for who u are. i dont go for materials. and who says im that girl from town? im just like u, like everyone else, ok?

2010-06-20T11:18:00.001+08:00

Japanese Amusement Park Ride Accident - Watch more Funny Videos

MUST WATCH THIS!!!

so jaw dropping.

wat in the whole world is that crane doing there?

2010-06-16T16:57:00.001+08:00

hehe, thanks Atiqah for mentioning i baked the most awesome brownies ever.
haha!
:DDDDD

2010-06-16T15:09:00.003+08:00

god, did u watch the latest news at channel news asia? theres a flood in town! takashi (hehe) or known as taka was the worst! omg, just how those workers go to work or have their lunch just now?

2010-06-16T14:11:00.001+08:00

i really just dont understand why. i just dont.
i have this good feeling its him all these while.
am i right or am i wrong?

2010-06-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

desktop went wrong, file gone, pics gone, karangan draft gone.

bloody hell.

2010-06-15T15:04:00.003+08:00

Meet my long-lost best friend,

Afrosa Zahidha.

After we lost contact ever since Sec 1, we finally keep in touch with each other again.Yesterday met up with her for the first time since two and a half years ago. I thought it would be all weird considering the fact that we hadnt met for ages but in fact, it was the total opposite. The two of us just couldnt stop talking and coming-to-three-years of stories, five hours was definitely not enough. Insyallah, soon it will be my turn to go Ang Mo Kio. Yeah, she lives there.

Anw, we watched The Karate Kid and it was the bomb! Effortlessly funny and emotional at the same time. Go watch it if u have not.

Toodles!

2010-06-10T15:43:00.003+08:00

Great songs i love:

2010-06-10T15:38:00.002+08:00

it felt so weird and wrong when u got to know someone who used to be ur ex is actually somehow somewhat related to u. i mean theres a relation between us?

2010-06-09T19:37:00.004+08:00

Dear Amira Shaqira bte Saharudin,

Following the message that I've sent u, happy 15 again! Hope you enjoyed your day with us and that you love the surprise. It's been 3 years knowing you and I promise to always cherish every moment of it. Please don't go to you-no-where because you moving to Woodlands was already hard for me to cope with. I love you, my best friend, and I'm sure you know that. Take care, Fifi.

enjoy some of the pics that i love!

pics, go here.

2010-06-05T19:12:00.001+08:00

its already prayer time, still noisy. wat are they, really?

2010-06-05T18:09:00.002+08:00

i hope u love the song though i know most of u are gonna say 'eww'. its alright. keep ur comment to urself.

dear john the storybook, was full of emotions. towards the ending, i cried like a baby. cried so hard till i got a severe headache. it surely is a must read book. though i pretty much hate for its sad and not live-happily-ever-after ending, we dont always get wat we want.

anw, im having fun watching rental movies thanks to my ic. hehe! so far, ive watched case 39 which keeps u on ur toes every single minute, alice in wonderland which i must say is just so fake, unreal and illusive. its definitely not for me, thank u. then the list goes on and on. but the latest one is an education. its definitely an eye opener though i know i wont do such things, not in a million years.

that aside, just then, the opposite block had a wedding. i swear it droves me crazy. for a start, the mat motors vroom vroom here and there. stupid, no brain tahap maximum! then when the bride and groom arrived, the mike was so loud not certain for why. furthermore, this may be shocking but trust me, there was once when the music was blasting those disco or runway songs. tsk3, people nowadays.

on another note, i had Al Quran exam just now. it was pretty alright. i think i did ok. i mean idk but i feel everything i did this year was far way better. and haha, guess wat? the ustazah 'scolded' me because ive this slang whenever i read something. is it? im not sure about that. and that, u know, weirdly and shockingly, when the ustazah said that, i got reminded of him, who people including F said hes good in reading Al Quran. he used to say that to me too. ok, now wat am i blabbering? shut up.

k, bye.
huhu!

2010-06-02T15:44:00.002+08:00

so, yesterday's malay oral exam. to be honest, im quite happy with wat ive done. i mean, compared to last year when i was way silent, this year was definitely better. reading was of no issue. except when it was the conversation time, i actually went a little bit out of topic. but thank god, it was only the beginning. then i got better and teacher said my explanation was good. so that makes me happy.

in a whole different note, my mum asked me to cut my hair. i still dont know if shes joking or she means it. im praying shes just joking because i love my hair right now.

anw, to that guy, i simply dont have the time to reply u. so since im writing right now, might as well i say this. pls dont silly. F and i have been friends since forever so theres no reason for us to break apart just because of ur well, wat do u call that? mp3, is it? watever.

2010-05-31T11:49:00.004+08:00

love this pic very much like very much. i look tall.

hey,

sorry for being mia for quite a while. simply because at first i was lazy to update my blog then there's something wrong with my internet connection but thank god, everything's fixed now.

the play last fri was awesome. alright, to be frank, it was boring to the max in the beginning. i mean, wat do u expect? they were using Shakespeare language, for gods sake. but it got better after the break or wat u call, interval.

getting to the dbs arts centre was an absolute drama. i thought i had done my hw correctly but it ended up, we got stranded near dhoby ghaut interchange. but ms chua was being such a sweetie because even though we were panicking and in fact, shouting at her (not really shouting but shouting in panic), she still stayed calm. and omg, can u believe it that none of the bus and taxi drivers knew where it was? i swear i got so pissed off. but eventually, around 7.20 in the evening (we were suppose to meet the rest at 7 btw), one taxi driver finally knew where it was. that uncle was a rescue! he even took amira's 2 dollars instead of the real $3.40. i love u uncle!

anw, june holidays finally started. im trying my best to put on my best behavior because apparently, mum always have this issues about holidays.

that aside, ive quite a plan for my whole june already so yeah. tomorrow theres malay oral exam in the morning. on wed, im going shopping at topshop sale. i saw this really beautiful dress that ive been wanting since forever so since its for sale, i think i should get it. then it goes on and on. and the rest, well, let it be a secret.

oh, before i forget, girls, do grab watever pics u want at my multiply.

p.s. i got my ic! now theres no other excuse for u to escape, rental movies!

2010-05-20T20:22:00.002+08:00

As u can see, I've stop posting my own pics simply because it's been ages since I take one. Sorry for that.

Apparently, all of my friends have been giving this funny look whenever I relate something to uknowwho. For example, the other day or was it yesterday, I just randomly mention A's shoes used to be like his shoes. And everyone reacted like uknowwat. Then N played the piano and thought it's so funny. In fact surprisingly, my own bf, H, thought I still have feelings for him whenever I mention about him. Worse part is, F never gives up coaxing me in uknowwat. It's getting so ridiculous. I mean, is it wrong of me to randomly talk about him? Just because it's been tense between us?

Anw, I've been frequently checking my statistics of my blog and is it just me or is it just u? Well, I think I know why. Alright, I know I'm talking no sense but watever.

Tomorrow there's no school so yeah but still, there's assignments. Oh, and talking about school, I thought it's just our school but it seems that other schools has also started teaching back.

That's about all. Tata!

2010-05-20T20:21:00.002+08:00

How can A and Z sound the same in the telephone?

It's the new world wonder!

2010-05-16T18:00:00.002+08:00

I rearranged my clothing a few hrs ago because it was all cluttering everywhere in the wardrobe and oh my gee, I just realize I've got tons of unworn clothes left deep inside, some still with price tags. Shocking, I know. And worse of all, I don't like them anymore. The first thought that came into my mind just now was 'Omg, is this all of my purchases?' Mind u, I've taken half of the space of the wardrobe which was suppose to be a part of sis. No wonder mum freak out everytime I mention about buying new apparels. Now tell me what I should do!

2010-05-16T13:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I had my I'm-not-beautiful moment so I didn't get to dress up. As much as I love to especially on weekends. But things started to get better when sis offered me the brownies she baked in the morning. No words can describe just how delicious it was.

Anw, getting back to the topic of dress up, I think my mum is so weird. U know, when I decided to dress up like real dress up, she went mad and says things like, 'Fifi, we are just going to Tampines Mall'. Then if I don't have mood to like yesterday, she had went bonkers. She even lectured me about 'don't u have any other decent clothes to wear?' U know mum, it's only airport after all. Anw, it's just jeans and last yr's class tee. Wat's so wrong with that? I'm just relishing my past, not!

I think my mum should stop worrying about wat I'm wearing. Because if I were to be honest, u'll never caught me wearing like those typical Singaporeans. I mean, the long and short of it is, mum should be worrying about something else. Something far more important.

2010-05-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

I've found my old best friend.

*sob2*

2010-05-03T18:05:00.002+08:00

im sorry i hadnt manage to update any sooner. for a start, i dont know where i should begin with. its been so long since i updated this blog. way too long. so anw, a lot of things had happened but the long and short of it is exams have finally started.

last fri was the first one. im actually hoping for the best for my eng compo since i kind of like it, to be honest. but wats with that Ms G, im afraid theres not even a chance. aside from that, ss was horrendous. no, dont get me wrong. it was kinda easy except for the sbq part where i cant seem to understand and search for the correct evidence.

on another note, idkw im telling u this but anyway im telling u still that as much as i tried my best to save up last week, i couldnt. of all the $25 i received, i only managed to save $10. when i think back, its kinda pathetic, honestly.

and it was more disappointing with the fact that out of the blue im back with my habit of online shopping again. my point is, i really try to save up for june but it seems that within may, all my money will soon be gone. i hope not.

alright, i think i should get going. oh, but before that, the previous post was simply an inside joke so it was really nothing. im still sane.

till the next entry!

fifi

2010-05-01T15:25:00.000+08:00

In memories of my pen, Bluey.

2010-04-03T14:12:00.004+08:00

apart from the investiture which took place last thurs, theres really nothing to talk about. thus for the lack of updates. am really sorry.

so to just make this post long, ill talk about random stuffs, if that will do. firstly, the investiture is purely crap. they made us rehearse without giving any break. but of course, in the end they gave us 15 mins break which most of the class leaders took advantage of. especially 309's. they went up to class 15 mins to 1 in the afternoon. oh, and many asked me about the envelope thingy. yeah, its empty. budget, i know.

aside from that, im actually quite disturbed for there is this sec 1 guy who just keeps talking to me even when i showed no interest. then he started blabbering if im from 304 and that i always take bus 21 home. creepy as hell! but really, all the info he told me was completely wrong. from a to z. oh, and ive yet to mention that he tried to act oh so cool in front of me and nad that i couldnt help but laugh to his immature act. totally watever.

on another note, im pretty upset for Mr F will no longer teach us SS. Ms S will take over which i assume is a bad thing. wait, dont get me wrong. i like her, without any doubt. but i simply cant bear her teaching us for 1 whole yr. alright, almost for 1 yr. this simply means theres no more jokes and laughters in the class anymore. and if u ask me, it gonna be a hell of a yr.

2010-03-26T21:01:00.002+08:00

Love?

It takes two hands to clap. However hard you try, things will never change between us. To me, you no longer exist in this world. Period. So just stop putting in the effort to make things right once again.

2010-03-12T18:03:00.003+08:00

for more pics, go here.

however, dont be suprised for all my latest albums such as the London trip, birthday celebration, sci centre trip and new moon with friends are now gone due to my carelessness. thank god its the holidays so i should have the time to update everything again.

the highlight of the week would of course be me using a disney princess plaster to sch due to the 'injury' i had in the ferry. it was totally embarassing, alright. i had no other plaster and i had no idea. the disney princess plaster was the only one left so i just use it.

things been so great towards the end of the week. i especially love the semakau trip and the assembly talk. the policeman was so hilarious! everyone paid so much attention and was wide awake. can i have more of this, pretty pls? well, i guess its a no since ive already seen the schedule for assembly throughout 2010. its plain boring.

anw, ive talked to my parents and i think im going. just that ill be wearing home clothes or watever instead and that my parents will fetch me from there. so if u guys are thinking of going anywhere after that, its a big no for me. pls dont ask me wat, why, where, who, when, how. ive already mention it here. ive to go for my cousin's birthday bbq. thank u very much.

btw, ive been in contact with my china buddy. got to know lots of stuffs like how different their lives are than that in singapore. i shall not mention anything here but just so u know, we've got watever we want unlike them.

so sch holiday has already started. not officially but still, ... ill be busy on mon. 3 hrs of maths which equals to going absolutely insane by the end of the day. then im gonna go to library for some books. head down to mac for some milkshake. god, im thirsty! the rest of the days will be intensive revisions, study and have some fun. just on my own. not planning to go out with peeps. then on fri ill go to the library to return everything and head down to somewhere and get the stuff that ive ordered online for nad's birthday present. perfecto!

wow, this is just so long. oh, before i end this post, i recently made a tumblr account. do follow me here!

2010-03-07T18:18:00.011+08:00

Luella S/S Collection

2010-02-27T21:03:00.002+08:00

today's the day,

2010-02-26T20:27:00.003+08:00

its been a hell of a week. its the worse week ever. sch is starting to be such a bore. friends really gets on my nerves almost every time. note, friends not bfs. FT is really killing me slowly. he threatens us that we should be prepared about the bad remarks he gonna say to our parents on fri. im out of my wits now, really. i just wish its ms sharifah who is my FT instead. shes much nicer, in a way.

anw, theres a birthday bbq for my cousin or something during the march holidays. oh gosh, i so hate going for bbq! worse still, its a family gathering. thats the last thing i ever want. i really cant pretend im enjoying myself. they'll notice and once again, ill be the odd one out for either talking so little or not eating as much as i should or both. god, this is really terrorizing me!

mum feels the same way too. yeah, in case if u dont know, i may look like my dad but im more like my mum when it comes to behaviour and attitude. but as u know, we cant simply avoid the occasion because its a family thing. get wat i mean? so even if we like it or not, the answer is u still need to go.

im actually nervous about getting back my malay paper. ive been having nightmares about them. really, i cant calm myself down till i get my hands on them and check my marks. its unbelievable! wat on earth have i done to deserve that marks? and most importantly, wat have my class been doing till the band 2 class gets to win us? wat in the world is happening here? if my bf almost get an a1 then there must be something wrong with me. oh my, this is really driving me nuts!

this leads to...

MEET THE PARENTS SESSION THIS COMING FRI GONNA BE A REAL NIGHTMARE!

2010-02-19T18:15:00.003+08:00

China peeps really are so cool. They are so much friendlier than us, thats for sure. Anw, I was the buddy of Bing Ling together with Hui Jun. It was really so awkward at first but we get on really well soon after a few hrs on the first day. Everyone got so attached with their own buddies including me. Just that I'm a Malay and Hui Jun had to translate for some of the words that I spoke too fast.

Things went pretty well for the 2 days and everything must come to an end, right? So to end things off, we had the exchanging of gifts ceremony. Apparently, my buddy only had brought along 1 gift but theres 2 of us so I gave in and Hui Jun has it.

All in all, I really have to say China peeps are so generous. While my sch gave them this painted picture of I'm not sure wat, they gave us this genuinely beautiful err....wat shall I call that?... Alright, idk wat but it's a figure of a lion.

Oh, and suprisingly, he was also there. That was shocking. I mean, he? China? That is something really odd. For me, at least.

2010-02-19T18:03:00.002+08:00

Love at first sight

its so much better in real life, believe me.

2010-02-12T17:22:00.002+08:00

R.I.P McQueen

its all over the internet by now. it was so shocking when i heard he commited suicide. he will surely be missed by every single one throughout the world. im definitely one of his fans. he never failed to inspire me with all his creative and quirky designs. its without doubt, he always managed to stand out in the crowd.

anw, back to my updates. i can say im being a good girl today. i payed the phone bills and made my dad happy. i bought for my mum egg tart from kfc which shes been craving for. and i made her even smile widely when i said its my treat. its very unlikely of me, u know. giving treats, i mean.

been thinking lately of which storybk i should buy next. the lovely bones is already here. but theres also a bk from jodi picoult ive been yearning for. and theres also cecelia ahern's latest book, the book of tomorrow. then theres coco chanel, the biography. how? any suggestions of which i should buy?

anyhoos, ive a tight schedule this long holiday. theres tons of hws. actually not really. its just dnt, malay oral, lit, maths. i dont really have to get stressed up for lit since we wont be having humanities next week. but but but, theres lots of research to be done especially on dnt and malay draft. omg! i just remember. the ss test is being postponed yet again which will be on the 25 feb. hell! its supposed to be next thurs, 18 feb but mr farizal said we will have something on which he refused to mention. but i think ill still dislike that day since my class gonna have physics extra class. i hate the word remedial.

on another note, things been fine. in the sense of my life. but classmates are being irritating as ever. say just now for example. mr kahar made an announcement about collecting the parents meeting form. made an announcement! but during eng period, 2 of my classmates just came up to me and gave their forms so innocently. i wish i could just shout at them or even strangle them to death! another thing. i will repeat this again and again until im satisfied. he is useless!

2010-02-05T16:01:00.008+08:00

they thought forgetting him was a piece of cake.

if only they knew how much effort ive to put in just to get him out of my mind.

but with u keep comparing with him, it just make things worse.

u know, the last thing i ever want to be reminded of is him.

i beg of u, leave me alone.

2010-01-31T15:21:00.002+08:00

why its only u who i keep thinking of?

2010-01-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

ive officially deleted my twitter account. i could hardly update it. so dont bother searching it any longer.

sch was fine as it is. except that the class diary has been missing for a whole week. yet mr kahar couldnt care less. so why should i?

classmates been have been getting so weird day by day. idkw. like yesterday for example, out of the blue, azim texted me 'i want burger ramly. im hungry. thanks mum, love u'. tell me, who wouldnt be suprised/shocked? and then came some weird chinese guys who just couldnt stop texting me asking really annoying ques. but still, im starting to love my class. its either i learn to love or ill suffer, u see.

there will be lots of tests this upcoming week. and im not sure if im gonna do well for all of them. btw, while 309's ss test is gonna be on the 18 feb, we are going to take it before cny. thanks to my classmates. but anw, im really hoping ill do great.

btw, this morning when i was walking towards the block where my friends and i usually meet, i saw this one schmate of mine. hes my batch. well, he actually have a crush on me thats why i think this occur. he actually waited for me and tried to walk with me, not knowing ive my friends waiting for me. he really creeps the hell out of me, u know. i wouldnt mind if its shaik. because as u all know, hes well known for disturbing girls. but this is different. wat more, there wasnt anyone at that block, the one where i met him. so he actually followed me all the way that i prayed so hard (haha, i know this sounds so ridiculous), and he just go towards another direction. thank god, i tell u!

wat else? hmm...

oh, ive been reading quite a lot nowadays. in a week, i make a promise to myself to finish reading 2 storybks, 1 malay and another eng. this has been going on eversince sch reopens. i love how things are so far. whenever i feel the urge to just sit in front of the comp or tv, i will just open up my book and without me realising, its already midnight.

.....

why do u always have to appear in my dreams?

why couldnt u just go far away?

why am i hoping?

why am i such a fool?

why?

2010-01-26T18:12:00.002+08:00

i love, love, love sch nowadays. things been great currently. but i wont say its perfect. there are still times when i just wish to give up and walk away. even then, i still have to be rational. if i were to concentrate on just one thing, things wont turn out this way. but yeah, theres no point regretting everything now.

anyhoos, the deadline for class deco is in a few weeks time. ive done some research just now. hope the class love it. or maybe take it as an inspiration.

btw, subject teachers are really driving me crazy! they keep drilling us with all kinds of stuffs, expecting us to remember every single thing. worse still, they just cant seem to stop scaring us about o levels. super annoying!

on another note, pls3 308, hand in ur health booklet tomorrow. stop giving me excuses, will u? only 5 students gave me despite me being so thoughtful texting almost all of u last night. if u think its so difficult to remember bringing the health booklet, pls symphatise me at the very least. do u think ive all the time in the world to collect the health booklet? do u think i like chasing after almost the whole class because of this stupid thing? oh, and to those who lost it, pls do try to find it. even if it means turning ur house upside down.

before i end this post, this is for someone special.

i dont love u.
i dont like u.
i dont adore u.
i really dont have time for u.
u know ure popular.
u know many girls want u.
so give them chance.
& forget about me.
because i promise not to get involve with u again.

get it?

2010-01-12T16:47:00.004+08:00

heyho!

sorry. eventhough i planned to update since last week on how my sch life's been, ive a really tight schedule. even if i dont, its either i read my storybks, newspapers or sleep. been so exhausted since sch reopens, u know.

so anw, as u all know or maybe u still dont know, im the vice chairman. note, vice-chairman, not chairman. but i still do more work than the chairman though. it felt so weird to take control of the class. and its so hard to get everyone quiet. ive to say i feel like giving up almost every single day. but im still trying to give it a try. if things just get worse, maybe ill try to talk things out with mr kahar, who will be back by next week. as for now, im really trying my best to look on the positive side.

btw, im in band 1 for mt. so does the guy and that someone. the funny part is, amira was so afraid something might happen. but i assured her things will just be right. even then, i know something is not right with that someone. i know its confusing. u dont have to understand actually.

on a different note, camp is tomorrow! im simply not ready be it physically or emotionally. but the good thing is, ive packed my bag since last sun. i know, so semangat. haha! oh, and if i say ill be living in hell for the next 3 days, my family are more than happy to see me go. my parents really think that its about time i should get active. if u know me, u know why they say that. while my sis cant wait to get rid of her annoying sis.

toodles!

2010-01-03T19:09:00.002+08:00

tomorrows the day!

omg!

*gasp*

alright, im ready for tomorrow but definitely not for the rest of my sec 3 life. besides, theres camp at sembawang, bowling and watever else. how can i even survive?

anw, im done watching the lovely bones. yeah, i know its supposed to be out early this year but im sure i wont be able to watch it. the story's pretty touching. and i just hate the murderer. oh, and im halfway watching breakfast at tiffany's. im absolutely in love with audrey hepburn! yay, i can live with her for the whole year since ive got her pencil case!

oh2, and sorry i wont be posting my creations because the picture quality is so.... if ure still interested, ull just have to wait till june holidays, i guess.

alright, thats all.

wont be posting that often after sch is officially open, which is tomorrow.

toddles!

2010-01-01T16:19:00.002+08:00

Dear 2009,

Thank u for making me a better person. Thank u for helping me being strong even after all those challenges. Thank u for uve given me the chance to make up my mistakes. Thank u so much for everything. U, 2009, has made such a great impact in my life.

From the starting of the year, I was without doubt, very confused of the situation I was in. I had presumed that this year would be the worse year ever. I had thought that this was finally the end of the world for me. Not until when Amira decided to stay.

On Feb, I had known someone interesting in a way. Indeed, he was considered very special to me. Everything went perfectly well. Or so it seems. Soon after, we had a relationship that last only for a week. Everyone hated us to be together. They thought the differences between us were too severe. By then, I had already lost hope. Even though I must admit that I still had something for him.

Then here came that someone again. He appeared in my life as someone ‘special’ without me realizing. The feeling was just an infatuation. Till the day when he finally said he has someone else. I had thought that this finally had to be it. But he changed everything. After that, I just hated him. I really just hated him. The stuffs he did were just too much. He had been repeating the same mistakes again and again. And I, being the completely ignorant girl, just hold on to his promises. After I think back, it’s really an unwise choice.

Things really started to get different then. It was the most painful period of the year. I had to endure all those unnecessary comments given to me. Everyone thought that someone was right. And I’m always the wrong one. They didn’t know the real story. They just presume it wasn’t fair for me to treat him that way. But I think either wise. If he appreciated me, why should he go for another girl even though he ‘love’ me? And if he already knows that he can’t give full commitment to me, why did he give me hopes? Do u get wat I mean?

So after the long silence, which is after 6 long mths, we finally got back to talking. It was during the hari raya visits our group had. Actually, Ive always had a choice. He had always been trying to talk to me but I’ve always ignored him. But things just seem to be different. Everything was awkward after that.

On the end of Sep or early Oct, I and Nadiah fought. Actually, I don’t know how I got involved in this. It’s a long story and I don’t want to put the blame on anyone any longer after this had been settled even though I absolutely know who’s behind all these. To cut it short, we are friends again. And we are going to be in the same class this year!

On the early Nov, I went to London with family. It was so much fun. It was really so memorable. It was cold yet I’m glad because it hasn’t snowed. I just can’t be in a snowy place, u know. And when I’m finally back on the 17th Nov, it was too late to appeal for another class.

After the long post about me being back in Singapore and such, that was finally the end of me and the boy. Or maybe I think it is. But I guess it was entirely my fault for why all this happen.

Anw, the day before my birthday, my beloved friends held a surprise birthday celebration just for me. I was so touched. This was indeed the first time I ever had this kind of wonderful celebration. Every single important person in my life was there. Except a few though.

On my birthday itself, messages after messages were sent just to wish me happy birthday. Thank u all for ur wonderful wishes. God bless u!

Then it comes to the class outing. It was indeed a memorable one for me. The best class outing before we go seperate ways. But its sad though for those who couldnt make it.

And now, im finally happy, single and not contacting with anyone for the moment.

Spread love, not hate.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-12-31T11:16:00.000+08:00

HEAD OVER HEELS WITH...

2009-12-30T18:36:00.003+08:00

so yesterday, went for class outing. have to admit that at first, it was super boring. we were the earliest since before that, me and mun ee went to catch alvin and chipmunks 2. everyone was really late, we had to call them numerous times. so much of asking us not to be late, eh? its alright, its already over.

after ms sha finally arrived, we went to have late lunch at bbq chicken. honestly, i dont really like the place since when im usually outside, i dont really like to eat stuffs that has anything to do with fillet, u know. be it fish or chicken. but that day, its ms sha's treat.

afterwhich, we went to rent bicycles. since i couldnt ride one, me and ms sha went for double bike. it was so much fun and u know, ive to disagree with everyone who hates her. i mean, shes such an open-minded person. unlike mdm natasha. and we went on talking about all those pairs in our class. i dont really mind telling her because again, shes not like mdm natasha whos already old yet so not fun.

and ms sha finally knows wat really happen between me and zhafri. no, im not kidding. i really told her. she was shocked actually but she already expected it since the class always make so much noise whenever theres anything that has got to do with the 2 of us. she even went on telling me why i should be grateful to have him liking me. and if u read my twitter, yes, i said i dont care. i mean, really, i dont care. thinking about him is just a pure waste of time, no?

anyhoos, ill be posting about my creations this fri, new year, since many are interested. to those who know nothing, ull soon know.

and clarisse, im really sorry i couldnt tag along this sat. i really look forward for any flea markets going on but it seems that ive religious class and u know i cant skip it without valid reasons. sorry!

till here.

toodles.

2009-12-28T19:17:00.002+08:00

heyho!

sorry ive not been updating as often as i should. been pretty busy lately so that explains why, i guess.

anyhoos, sezairi won! as i already expected. but the really annoying thing is some people just cant accept the fact that its the third time that a malay won. the thing is, they allow us to vote. and its simply u who chose not to. so to those who goes 'it seems im watching a malay idol', then u better sit one corner and thing hard if its really our fault. personally, i dont think so. ive heard and read about all those other races supporting sezairi saying hes cool, hes talented, he should win and such. easy say, if u hate/loathe/despise a malay winning the competition, just dont let us, the malays, to enter the competition on the next round.

on another note, im really so not in the mood now. dad just warned/lectured/scolded (i dont really get the tone) me because i just bought a knee jeans. no, no. not because of that. dad said its the maximum. no more shorter than that. i mean the length. i really hate this, u know. everytime i bought something, dad just had to comment about everything. the thing is, my sis has one or two pants with that kind of length. and never did dad or even mum say anything. but with me, they started to say all kinds of things, making assumptions im gonna wear shorts that are really short. like my dad said 'till people can see ass'. i dont get it. i just dont. wat ive done to deserve all this? i mean, it doesnt even occur in my mind to make myself look like a fool. i still know wats right, wats wrong. i think its really about time they should stop all this. and even if they dont want to, make it sound like they are talking to both my sis and i at the very least.

omg, i know i shouldnt say all this. but im just so upset right now.

till here.

2009-12-19T11:35:00.000+08:00

why are there still some heartless people in this world?

2009-12-18T14:13:00.000+08:00

'sometimes uve to let everything go - purge urself. if ure unhappy with anything...watever is bringing u down, get rid of it. because ull find that when ure free, ur true creativity, ur true self comes out.'

2009-12-17T15:28:00.004+08:00

20/11/09:

the day before my birthday, i had a surprise birthday celebration. it was held at pasir ris park. almost everyone was there. i was really happy. they actually spend quite a huge amount of money for all the stuffs. so yeah, i just wanna thank u guys for all those hardworks eventhough in the end some just had to spoil the surprise. its alright. i really did enjoy the day.

to those who gave me presents, thank u so much. dont u guys worry. i love them all.

21/11/09:

the day i turned 14 yrs old. theres nothing to be proud of actually. i feel so old. really. so anw, my day went as usual. i had to attend religious class on that day since dad didnt allow me to skip. but after that, we went to swensens, like any other yr, and had our dinner there. the dessert for the day was chocolate foundue. was so elated! i mean who gets to eat it that often?

23/11/09:

went to have a picnic with li yi for our belated birthdays. had jco donuts, yoghurt and kfc. we had so much fun when this crazy dog started to enter the park. was really so terrified that in the end we went to li yi's house. her mum is so nice, i loike! haha, thanks for the day anw.

7/12/09:

went out with syahidah. the post is somewhere below. and thats the big hello kitty balloon. oh, and syahidah was so nice to make me cupcakes. those 2 are my faves, btw.

11/12/09:

went out with mun ee to plaza singapura. we walked around and went into spotlight. i got some items there. werent really cheap so i was really hoping to find some other places where i can find cheap thrills.

anw, this outing was a wrap for the whole birthday celebrations. so yeah, thanks again for the gifts and wishes, everyone. afterall, its the thought that counts.

2009-12-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

ive always read about this e-reader be it in newspapers or mags. and ive never stop hoping that somewhat someday ill get it. but this singapore here is so slow, they havent import any. when can i ever get this?

oh, and i love the 2nd one. reminds me of the pink flats from cotton on.